This morning I woke up from a dreaming cycle. I decided to listen to the 21 day meditation from Deepak Chopra and try to focus my day.
I am feeling quite sensitive the past few days. I have cried often and at times couldn’t identify the emotion the tears were bringing to the surface. It felt unsure, confused, and perhaps that’s where I am. And it’s okay.
The message in the meditation centered around being in your present moment. My mind has been running circles and creating monstrous thoughts. I have tried to suppress these feelings because in society, (according to my thought) they are considered wrong, even mean. But, what if instead when you thought something or drempt something, or felt something that felt “wrong” you embraced it as another thought… Instead of feeling fearful you welcomed it. Instead of labeling it as a “big decision” or feeling the burden of life.. You saw it as a moment you thought differently, and you didn’t react with big movement, or decisively… Instead just unraveled it and let it sit.
So much of our life we don’t do things, or try, because of the fear. We make something small, big. We make a feeling, a lifetime. And it need not be.
So when you feel heavy, my darlings, when it feels like your thoughts have taken over your mind, when you have mapped out your life’s journey without living it, stand back. Give it time to be itself. Try to enjoy it.
And when those thoughts, the ones you’re pushing down and away.. When. They return. Invite them in. Don’t fear them. Embrace them.